a case of diarrhea

watch out for the poop...!!!
Well, I'm back today typing from northern New Jersey. I'm visiting the home that I grew up in and once again going through the experience of being treated like a child. my parents can't seem to see me as an adult. I pretty much expected this, in fact I've come here to get this treatment one more time from them. It is useless to talk about my issues with them because they have already decided who I am and what my mistakes and problems are. They have remained the same since I left and I guess I'm still that child that they know so well. And here I thought the last thirty years might have changed me a little. But no the are sure that is not the case, they think they still know better and I've got it wrong. I didn't get it then and still don't now, if only I had followed their advice I'd be doing so much better now. I wasn't ambitious enough to plan ahead and think of myself first. I've wasted a lot of time reaching out to others and passing up dollars and cents. I took a week off to come visit them instead of working for myself and getting it into the bank. What a fool! And now that it's catching up with me I can't expect their help since I chose to move off to Colorado and live independently. They are very comfortable here marking time till the reaper comes and I'm still not satisfied. They think they are happy just killing time, and I see time killing them. I wonder if any of you have swam in this cesspool and tried to get your folks to change the way they look at things. Or to to see you in the light of this new day instead of the haze of their past. I'm not making any progress, and in less than a week they've had more of me than they can handle. So rather than piss them off any more I've pulled back and I'm looking foward to heading back to Colorado where the mess of my life is waiting to be resumed. I've heard what they had to say, I'm digesting it now, and I can't wait to poop it out and get on with life........